Tonight was really slow. Since when did a little misty rain stop people getting Starbucks? It seems to work well for Seattle... I tried to get my manager to close early, but no such luck. So instead we all were just chatting behind the bar. I was standing on the far end, my supervisor was standing down at the other end, and sitting behind her were two very attractive, tall guys, who come in quite regularly (and yes, I blush every time I take their order... so smooth). I am mid-convo with Nancy, and I say, "Nancy, what about you, are you dating anyone?" The cute boys must have missed the 'Nancy' part (or perhaps it was a childhood nickname to which they were used to responding), and they both look over and say, "US?! Are you asking us?" I turned 50 shades of red and looked at Nancy desperately. I laughed awkwardly and mumbled something about, 'No, I was NOT talking to you...' and then proceeded to run to the back room to safety. FAIL! I didn't even get their answer...
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| Me, apparently... |
This seems to be a common theme, that has become apparent to not only me, but my coworkers. The other day I spilled hot coffee on myself in front of two customers, and, instead of reacting like a normal human, I just mumbled something about refilling it for them if they wanted, and then ran away, my hand burning from hot coffee, leaving them completely bewildered. My coworker still laughs at me for that one. And the poor guy this weekend who had the courage to ask me to brunch, I thanked, but said I had plans and that I had to get back to work (a polite excuse to run away)... and probably more mumbling, of which I can't be sure.
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| What I will be, eventually |
What this has made me realize is that I let myself panic, unnecessarily, and then just escape from the awkwardness. I instead need to take a moment in these situations and just let them happen. Just go with it. Flow with the flow, breeze with the breeze. Embrace the awkwardness. Bask in the chaos with everyone involved. BREATHING will help, as will letting my brain take a moment to process the situation before physically or mentally running away. I'm going to work on this until I can stay as cool as this polar bear here. Just being aware that I do this has helped a bit already. It has also made me aware that sometimes I simply just look like a crazy lady talking to myself. I'm okay with that at times... but I'm also okay with finding out what opportunities may come from NOT running away :)
carpe diem, hakuna matata, no day but today... redhead OUT.
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